So now that I have gotten over that last attempt at a relationship, I am ready to begin again. The first step was making my body look phenomenal. Thanks to the Insanity workout, I look great. I have dropped two suit sizes, and the heads are turning.
Step #1: When you look good, you feel good.
I am on my second month of the workout and it is coming along nicely. The new person in my life will be happy with the results. I have also been buying some new clothes to go with my new body. It's hard to look good when your clothes don't sit properly on your hot body.
I've even noticed that I smile more now too. It's a happy day.
The next stage in my progress has been to put myself out there more. I am meeting new people, opening myself up to dates and good times.
Step #2: If you aren't out in the world, it passes you by.
So far I have flooded the market with the news I am available and the consumers are breaking down the doors. I still don't know what to do with any of them, but as long as I keep talking, I'm still in the game. I have to be aware that I tend to shut down eventually and focus on my professional life. I have to make sure that when things start moving along I don't jump ship first chance I get.
A thought occurred to me the other day why I always do that: I have trust issues. In my entire life there is only one person around that I wholeheartedly believe. When we talk I feel special and loved without a doubt in my mind. There isn't anyone else is my life that has ever made me feel that way. Why? I don't really know the root of that yet. I've just never really felt that these people in my life are there for genuine reasons. I always seem to think that the only reason they are with me is to use me ... take advantage of me ... and be rid of me when I'm of no use to them. It seems a bit sad, but it is what I think about with these people. That is what makes it so easy for me to separate from people. That's also what has kept me from truly exploring whether love is something I want to be a part of my life. I need to know for sure now.
That is why I am doing all of these changes. I need to know if things could work for me with personal relationships. This time if it doesn't work I will know for sure it is because I gave it my all (just as I did with my professional life and succeeded) and it just simply didn't fit me. Let's do this.
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