In a calmer state I realized something about myself that is very important in self-development: I am not a people person. Not just in the sense that at work I'm aggressive and confident, but to just people on the street I am intense and overwhelming.
It's a bit disappointing to see that I haven't escaped my own demons when it comes to being close to someone or displaying my feelings. It's a real hindrance to being a better me. I have to work on that.
Anyway not to go into too much about the whole situation, this weekend forced some deep revelations and hard-learned lessons. I'm still a work in progress. As long as I keep recognizing my problems I can start the process of fixing them.
